Wednesday, June 25, 2008
BEEN THERE: DONE THAT
I have been home with my children for the most part of their lives. I had always wanted to be a mother and stay home with my children. My mom had always told me that a had that "motherly" instinct. She noticed it at a very young age. I was always trying to be a mother to any child that came along my way. I always babysat other children in my teenage years. I guess you can say that i love children. I never really had to work till i got divorced. It was a hard pill to swallow. I had never been on my own, even more, never had to support myself. I would soon be on a journey of self-sufficiency, and maturity. I soon was working at a daycare center, ( of course) and doing everything by myself. There was getting the kids ready for school, breakfast, homework, getting clothes out for the next day, etc. I was taking 2 children to 2 separate fields at the ballpark, games at the same time, same day, and running back and fourth to those fields. I was a single parent and i was relying on no one but me. I was the one cooking supper as soon as i got home from work, making sure i was sitting right there making sure they understood homework. I was the one making sure i was showing them that i was excited to hear about their day, the friends they had made and how they got an A on a test. I was there to tuck those sweet babies in bed and proceeded to tell them that tomorrow was a new day, perhaps a better one, that daddy would soon be home, and that maybe we would be a family again. I am not trying to feel sorry for myself. Women do this everyday and i guess i could to, I DID DO IT, and i am so proud that I could.I never thought that i was that strong, but as the saying goes, "what doesn't kill you only makes stronger" and i was strong. I was strong for them! There were many nights that i would put them to bed, and the last thing they saw was me smiling and telling them that i loved them. I would soon be crying after that, wishing that i had not torn my family apart. But, i had to be strong for them, had to be there "backbone", their support, their mother.I am home with them once again, and loving the dog out of it! I'm there for everything and anything, and i don't want to ever miss a thing they do. I had to lose everything,to gain. I realize now that family is the most important thing in this short-lived life. I will never take my family for granted again, ever. I can say now that i have worked and had a family and was successful at it. I managed the two and I'm still here!! I don't want to go back and do it again....BEEN THERE AND DONE THAT, and I'm proud of it!