Thursday, October 30, 2008
Bailee is always writing me little notes. It can be anything from a simple "I love you" or just a note saying that she is thinking about me and how glad she is that I am her mother. She seems to always know when I need a little encouragement. She seems to know exactly the right time to lift my spirits when I have not had a great day. Bailee is so special and her way of making things better are so well appreciated. Bailee's love for people is so unexplainable. She always sees the better in people, and she recognizes their faults and mistakes but loves them anyway. She is so much like Jerry, she sees the potential in a person even though we all do things that are not good. Bailee is my hero, I want to be like her. Her heart is so big, and there is always room there for growing in the faith of a life that is good, a life that she sees through learning to accept things as they are, and a chance to really make her life the best it can be. Bailee is destined for so many great things. I know she will be a woman with a strong foundation of what a family should be and she will make it happen. I cried when she handed this poem to me, for I felt so unworthy of such a high position. She thinks I am the best mom in the world, but sometimes I feel like I could be doing so much more. I am sometimes reminded of abandoned my children when they needed me the most, and I can't believe that I did that to them and Jerry. I sometimes feel like a failure, and that I do not deserve a second chance. How could they forgive me and let me back in? It's simply because true love forgives, true love sees the person that was there, and knows that the person they fell in love with was ALWAYS there, but somehow lost faith when faith was all that was needed. Unconditional love is with my children and I, and they will always love me no matter what I do, and I will always love them. Thank God he allowed me to go through trials and tribulations to bring me most of all closer to him, but also he allowed me to see that family is the most important thing in life! Humiliation is a great thing, I will forever humble myself to the Lord for giving me a second chance. I am so blessed to have Jerry and Caiden, and Bailee! When I found out I was pregnant with Bailee, I was so happy and yet I felt like I didn't deserve to have another child, for I felt like I was being selfish for wanting another, when so many could not have children of their own. But God, saw the love that our family could have with Bailee. That is why I named her Bailee Grace. Grace is what God gives us when we don't deserve it,but also allows us to have what bring glory to his name, and because he simply loves his children, and wants us to be happy. But God knew that Bailee Grace would be such a blessing to us, and she is the blessing that has forever changed my life. She is my daughter, but she is also my special gift from God that keeps on blessing and blessing me! I love my Grace girl so much!